Windows to the soul...

... I found a very great picture about this on the internet, to specify, on the firefox  personas site.

That's it. I really like it.

To be honest, I don't know, what can I write about right now.  I mean, I have no ideas and I'm feeling like I'm empty - but don't know, why. Like I don't know anything... Maybe it was the weekend.

I got sore throat and a little running nose when I woke up today, and it's not good. I think maybe the illness makes me feel kind of empty. I might have high temperature too, I reckon. Or I got used to happiness this fast? Nah... wtf... Is something wrong with me...?

The best thing would be to stay in bed all day, but I need to go to my seminar at 3.00 p.m. because we're writing a test and I don't want to miss it. Until that time I try to revise and not to think about my Love all the time. It's very hard. Some yoga lessons or something would be nice to me in order to improve my concentration skills. But I don't have time... :S Yes, I know, actually it's not true... You have time for things which you want to devote time to.

Right, I think it's time to leave, because I'm feeling really sick. :S Hopefully I'll get better until the weekend because I'm going home and will be with my Lion.

Why does it always rain on me?

Have I ever said that I hate Mondays? Not enoguh times, I reckon. I have the reason to hate them as much as possible. Simply, my social-scholarship application is rejected, and there's nothing I can do about it. Just because the stupid system made up that some stupid paper is needed and I wasn't told about the changes. Neither said anybody that I should read the insturctions very careful... Because last semester no one asked me to hand that shit in. Interesting... Suddenly it's just been changed... Never mind, I'll remain poor but happy, as usually I am. I got used to it, so this isn't so big news...

Anyways, I need this weekend to come as fast as possible. I mean, really fast. I need relaxing, relieving, sleeping and so much other things, like being with my Love, meeting friends, having fun, etc. So, the essential ingredients to a happy life. Is this a big favour? I don't think so. Ftw..

The other topic I wanted to write is linked to my RWS course, and it's just a bit of it. We had to write a kind of poem about "Cats and commas" which I found very interesting and challenging. Here's what I wrote:

Two cats with claws

Try to write a clause.

But with only four paws

They cannot make a pause.

The original version was this (because we only got the words: claws, clause, paws and pause):

A cat has claws at the ends of its paws.

A comma's a pause at the end of a clause.

As you can see I still have a lot to learn. :D

I know, I know, don't make a fuss about everything, and don't complain. But if once I must...?

Now I'm gonna leave because I'll have an end-term test on Wednesday and a vocab test on Thursday so there're a lot to be done and learned. Even not to mention the American Lit&Cult (optional) mid-term test which is due on 29th and I have read very few pages from the material so far... and this weekend will just destory me :D But don't worry, I'll be here when anything memorable happens. :P

shitdays rule

I don't know why I'm having shit days for a while... Since Monday... The latest days are just complete disasters in all ways...  I cannot catch a single bus, my mood is like I've been washed about 1000 times and I don't feel like learning, of course. The spring is here, or am I simply so retarded and miserable?

Except for love. This part of my life is just complete and full. And I'm happy with that, in all means. It seems that my life's parts have been mixed up and everything turned the other way round: in the issues I was lucky, now I'm a disaster and in the cases I was unlucky, I'm pretty fortunate. Who understands this? I'm sure I don't...

On the other hand (again), I need to do some learning today which will be a bit difficult because I wanted to read my book and magazine (thank God, I got my fellowship today) and just chill a little. Moreover, being lazy - one of the things in life I like to do... :)

I reckon that's all because I'm not feeling very well today due to my "red days" and some mood changes as well. Thanks life, I really appreciate it but I'd be happier when this all would be over!

What if...?

... the Big One does exist? What if I've finally found Him? Is this real? Can it be possible? What if you must have some "bads" before you meet the right person? I mean, I don't have so much experience, but there's something in it. It has something to do with learning, I reckon, but not in the usual way. You need to go through sad and tough periods as well, in order to learn how to appreciate the good times, and so on. All I wanted to say is, that every happening might have a reason, what we can't see in the present, though, but only in the future by looking back into the past.

I know that you can't forget the first, but why can't you have the best after it? It's everyone's right to find her/his partner and it's more wonderful when you have the best one. The only one, you'll ever truly love, from your heart. I just feel somehow that this relationship is/will be completely different (not like the previous ones) and magical. Maybe it'll last forever.

It happened when I totally gave up all my hopes, lost my faith and, I was just like, I don't know... No more love... However, it happened so fast (maybe too fast) but it really does worth...

I've never ever thought that I would (or could) be able to happy again, full of love, joy, desire and emotions. The ability to love and the feeling of being loved gives you a unique power, which is above all, I might dare to say, which is above everything. ♥

Thank You. I can't express how grateful am I now. I'd like to thank You everything, which I've got from You so far. I hope we'll have the time of our lives together. ♥